Yes Ma'am I Am...

Where to begin…I’ve joined the internet dating craziness…lol…by that I mean…I’ve signed up for an account…been sending message & receiving them at high speed…it’s insane…how is it that you can live in the same town for over a year & never run into anyone that peeks your interest…but you can join a dating service online & you see hundreds if not thousands of people that live within 50 to 100 miles of you…I don’t understand…has people really left the streets or sidewalks to only sit in front of the computer & wait for someone to message…I know people have been doing it for a good while now…but it’s fascinating that I got 60 messages yesterday…really people…you see my picture & my profile…then go to work with coming up with things to write me…one liners…jokes…propositions…phone calls…lunch dates…coffee sipping…roller skating…horse back ridding…a brisk walk…laying on a blanket staring up at the sky…star gazing…hand holding walks thru a book store…body messages…IM chats…& so on…some great ideas…others left me shocked…some were interesting…people are brave & inventive…I’ll give them that…the only thing that you get with all the new found men in your life…you get all types of them…from every corner of the earth it seems like…I know you have to try your hand at it…you’ll go thru some duds along the way…I know this from first hand experience…just trust me on it…though it’s all an experience & an adventure…which I’m game for…anyhoo…just thought I’d express my thoughts thus far about the new chapter in my life.

Long Overdue...

I'm tired of being cold...ready for some heat...actually I'm ready for a vacation...it's been a long time coming...I usually go on one cruise a year & then take a couple of road trips...well...for the past year I've not really gotten away not even once...

I'm dreaming of palm trees...warm air blowing my hair...a cool drink...cute guys caring for my every need...fresh fruit...white sand & a wide open ocean...a good book...a lounge chair...goodness...just the thought makes me inhale a little deeper.

Hey There Fitz...

There I was…working…you know…what most people do Monday thru Friday…answering the phone & helping direct people in the way they needed to go…I was glancing out the front door & I saw a man…strolling my way…yes…strolling…he almost had a hop in his step…his frame & profile looked like I knew who it was…but thought…no…never in a million years would he be in town…I turned around to sign for a package that the delivery guy was dropping off…when I turned back around…there he was…standing at my desk…with that smile on his face…the smile that always gets him anything in the world that he wants…with his eyes lit up…I swear I looked straight into his soul…I remember those eyes…I use to spend hours gazing into them…what his eyes didn’t say…his body language said the rest…to be honest…I long for those Sunday afternoons when we just hung out around the house…being next to each other…our legs touching if nothing else…we would do the crossword puzzle together…took turns reading the comics…which lead to us having a make out session...then we would cook something from an island…that he learned to fix…always something exotic…always something refreshing…always new.

Before I Bottle it Up…

What was supposed to be a trip home for my granny’s 66th birthday…during which we were going on a relaxing ride upon a casino boat…was not meant to be…well the relaxing boat ride part…after driving about 4 hours I got the call that changed the weekend plans…my granny was rushed to the hospital for kidney failure…along with a list of other things…which meant I would be spending most of my time in South GA at the hospital…what started out with her in a private room…ended up in her being taken to the CCU…that way they could keep a better eye on her…which also meant we were only able to see her a little bit here & there…when I left yesterday afternoon to make my way back north…she was still resting in her bed on the CCU floor…nothing like being in the hospital on your birthday.

Also…my Aunt that is very sick with cancer…had an issue with her legs going numb…she’s dealt with this for a while now…it’s always came on slowly & she was able to sit down & rest during the time they were numb…this time was different…she got up to walk to the bathroom…half way there…she lost all the feeling in her legs & she fell…after a few minutes of her screaming & crying…she calmed down a bit…we all joined her with tears…it scared her & us to death…I wish it wouldn’t have happened…I wish I could take the nasty cancer from her body…but instead…all I can do is hope & pray for the best.

What a weekend…maybe this week will be awesome & keep me entertained…so I don’t concentrate on the health issues that seem to be rocking my family’s world.

Control Your Kid...

OH MY DAMN...if I hear one more kid...cry...scream...kick...punch...or...throw themselves in the floor...my head just might explode right off my mother frickin shoulders!!!!!!!!!!!!

Place That Dime Between Your Knees Sweetie…

Why is it that America has come accustom to seeing children raising children…I still think there are ways of this not becoming a trend…I’m 29 & have had my fair share of sex…I will admit I started exploring boys at an early age & wouldn’t suggest anyone doing that…I also know that if kids are interested in exploring then it’s going to happen…I just don’t understand kids becoming Moms & Dads before they can drive…or before they can support themselves…I DON’T UNDERSTAND…there are so many methods out there to keep a girl from becoming pregnant…I wouldn’t say I’m old fashioned at all…but I just can’t begin to wrap my brain around the fact of young people becoming parents…not only do I think it’s stupid…I also think it’s very sad…I’m a firm believer that “if you play then you have to pay”…I love the way I feel when I’m intimate with a man…but I also know that I have to be responsible for myself…if I don’t want to have a child then there are things I can do to protect myself…it’s simple…plus anyone that has ever heard of the internet can look up info if they don’t know what is out there…I work in the health care field & I see girls coming in all day long…with a scared look in their eyes…I just want to say…well if you would have taken the time to put a condom on…or take some birth control pills or get a depo shot…then you wouldn’t be coming in here begging me to not tell your mom…I can’t tell your mom anyway…which is what I state time after time…another thing that just pisses me off is that…a child can go & get a pregnancy test without consent from a parent…but when it comes to signing up for help…then you have to have your legal guardian to sign the paperwork…BUT…if that same child decides that they want to abort the pregnancy…then they can walk into a clinic with money in their hands & get rid of any signs of that pregnancy…without ever having to have their legal guardian sign anything…the world is a screwed up place…this is just my little corner where I get up on my soapbox & express my thought!!!!

Five Friends...

It was 1998...we took a road trip...ending up in New Orleans...during which Mardi Gras was going on...we got there on Friday night & things were exploding...in more ways than one...after a 10 hour car ride...multiple stops at hole in the wall places so we could use the bathroom...a stop at a park so we could roll down the big hill & then itch for the remaining time while in the car...a couple of food stops...a brief stop at a record store where we stocked up on cds from our childhood...we were in a good mood...the 5 of us...in a really good mood...excited about finally being able to get out of the car longer than 20 minutes...when we left home our destination was unknown...though after a stop for gas & reading a poster in the window...we were New Orleans bound...five friends out looking for a good time...forget that we needed to be back home for work on Monday...forget picking up the phone & letting our parents know where we were...we had graduated the past summer & thought we were free...adults so to speak...we could do whatever we felt like doing & no one was going to interfere with that...we saw some weird things...met some crazy people...wished we had lots more money...stayed in a hotel that cost too much...ate food that we couldn't pronounce...walked the streets like we didn't have a care in the world...talked about our dreams & what we wanted for ourselves...drank a little too much...ended up not going home until Wednesday...after which we all lost our jobs because we thought Fat Tuesday was more important...than calling into work making up an excuse why we were going to miss three straight days of work...even though we lost our jobs...we made memories that lasted a lifetime...today I got a phone call from one of those friends...said they went down for Mardi Gras this year...I've not talked to this friend in 3 years...though he called to tell me that he had a much better time ten years ago...when we all were care free & had life by the balls...he mentioned how things have changed...how life has been a little cruel to him & he would give anything for it to be 1998 again...I just laughed a little...listened to him talk...after the call had ended...I thought back to 1998...yes it was a fun time & yes I'll remember things that happened on that road trip for the rest of my life...but no way in hell do I wish I could go back...I've also been through a lot of things...both good & bad...there's nothing inside of me that wishes I was that age again...nothing at all...like I told him...we've got to find new interesting people to take more trips with...to make more memories...rather than living in the past to the point that all you want to do is go back...I think that's sad.

The End...

Yesterday marked the end of a chapter in my life...a change was needed & I finally decided it was time for that change...after 8 months of a relationship & 6 months of being friends with benefits...it's finally over...we decided that it's best if we just remain friends...to talk & text every so often...I think it's one of the best moves I've made in a while...sometimes as much as you enjoy someone & want it to last...that's just not what is meant to be...I'm cool with it...he showed me some things about myself that I didn't know...he also proved to me that I can be happy again...so with that said...I'm glad our paths did cross...now we both can go our separate ways & look for new adventures...I wish him the best of luck.

Really...

"It's OK if you're unsure about marriage. A Chemistry.com study reported that 85% of adults think people can be happy without it, 44% prefer their single status to marriage and 39% are unsure they ever want to get hitched."

Alrighty...so I found this somewhere on the internet...let me start by saying...I don't need a study to explain the way I feel...though I found those numbers interesting...I thought they were a little high...or should I say...I guess I didn't think so many people out there thought the same as I do...lol...that's scary...I wonder where these people are hanging or hidding out...because I'm surrounded by people that think marriage is the best damn thing out there...if it works for you...great...but don't try to push it on me...I'm good thank you very much...if one day it happens...then it will just happen...but I'm not in any rush at all.

Ready For This...

Alrighty...I've been keeping this under wraps for sometime now...but finally have narrowed down my choices...which I'm in a state of intense thinking...

I'm going back to college...planing on expanding my education...wanting to start a career...tired of just showing up for a job...I've got a huge intrest in Travel & Tourism...so with that said...

The past 8 months...I've been talking with 12 different schools...trying to figure which one would best meet my needs...seeing which one will make me happier than ever to be attending college again...

Here are the one's I've narrowed it down to...

University of Nevada, Las Vegas...Harrah Hotel College...majoring in...Lodging & Resort Management...or...Hospitality Management.

Florida International University, North Miami...School of Hospitality & Tourism Management...majoring in...Hospitality Management...or...Travel & Tourism Management.

Cornell University, New York...School of Hotel Administration...majoring in...Hotel Administration...or...Hospitality Management.

Thats right...the schools that I'm most interested in...as I've just wrote...are not located in GA...there are not any good Hotel or Travel & Tourism schools in GA...so therefore I've had to branch out & find where they are located...trust me...I've done my research...many hours of research...

Right now...the one that is toping my list is...Miami...not because of it's location...because they seem to have more pull with the Travel industry...more of their graduates get better job placement...it's an interesting industry & there are so many different avenues that I could venture...to date...my all time favorite job has been hotel work...and just knowing that if I did go back to school & get the education that is required to have...so that I can join the higher end of hotels & resorts...it gives me goose bumps...it thrills me to death...excites me more than I could ever express!