Yeah I would...

if only he was standing in front of me...I'd punch him in the mouth & then knee him in the balls....make him beg for mercy...

Pepperment Patty...

so there I was...waiting to pay for my purchase...when I hear a little girl yell..."MOM...MOM it's Pepperment Patty"...more than once I heard this...so finally I turned around all while thinking..."parents should not give their children sugar covered ceral"...lol...when I turned to see what was going on...the little girl was pointing up at me...with her eyes wide...she yelled..."IT'S PEPPERMENT PATTY!!!!!"...I hadn't had my coffee yet...so I decided to turn around & just mind my own business...after I shot her a sweet smile...then all of a sudden I felt something pulling at the bottom of my scrub top...I turned around to see what in the heck was going on...it was the little girl & she said..."Hey Pepperment Patty...do you know Charlie Brown?"...needless to say I didn't know what to say...

With that said...

the previous post that is...I'm in a great mood...feel fine...going for a walk & on a hunt for something great to eat...I'm not one to wallow in my own funk...I deal with it & move on...though the man did make me cry today...guess I needed that also...but I'm sticking to my guns...what I wrote in the previous post is true...will be honored & will guide my life from this point on...all I'm saying is that I don't say mad or upset long at all...plus it's a beautiful evening...no need for me to waste it...

That's "Miss Crutch" to you...

all of my life...I've been there for people...if I chose to be or if I was in the so called wrong place at the wrong time...yes I'm a listener...yes I enjoy getting to know people...but damn it...nothing about those two things scream...TELL ME YOUR CRAP & I'LL JUST GRIN & BARE IT...

about right now...I'd so like to scream at the top of my lungs...tare holes in my skin...pull out my hair...bang my head on the wall...stab out my eyes...yes I'm pissed...yes I'm upset...but since I love myself as much as I do...I'm going to write about it...instead of causing myself bodily harm...

I'm tired of being used...tired of being the one person people run to with all their fucked up stuff...tired of listening...tired of being that person that listens so well & has a kind word to offer...tired of taking on every ones shit on my shoulders...because that is what really happens...when I listen to people...they come to me to unload their shit...I listen...comfort them...tell them what & how I feel about the situation...then when they've gotten it all out...they leave...go on with their lives...but you know what...their shit stays with me...they feel better now...and I'm the one that they have transferred their shit to...I'm the one that is ALWAYS there...I know they appreciate it...but they don't realize what they are doing...the reason they feel so much better is because...they've gotten it off their chest...gotten it out in the open...which is great...though it would be greater if I wasn't the person that was left with their baggage...

alright...so it's happened again...I find myself in some type of relationship with a man...one that wants to be with me but has issues pulling him down or away...his actions say one thing...but his words are drilling holes thru my eardrums...this is where my new revelation has come from...actually it's one that I've always known...it's just that I get wrapped up in the way I'm feeling at the time...but anyway...the man is great...I like spending time with him...like laughing with him...like being with him...there's just one thing that would make things even better...if he hadn't been married & then divorced...I'm tired of being every one's crutch...with that said...

I must say I'm a wonderful woman...have a lot to offer...bring more to the table than most women...I've been told this over & over during my lifetime...yes I'm conceded...but people know that I'm wonderful & have told me it many times...so yes it's my fault to keep putting myself in these situations...but I'm standing up for myself from now on...I've decided some things & I'm going to stick to them...

all in all...I've been...stepped on...pushed aside...ran over...taken for granted...this is where it stops...I've got feelings also...I live in the same world as the people that do this to me...and everyone does it to me...family...friends...co workers...strangers...anyone that spends a little bit of time with me...I'm sick of it...I'm putting my foot down...it's my life...I've got to take care of myself...because no one else is going to...that's for sure...

Movies...minus the popcorn...

Last night I saw Iron Man...lets just say it was better than I thought it would be...which made it very good...because I figured it would be good...I'll just call him Robert...you know like I know him personally...lmao...he was great & great to look at...there were a couple of times where I could have ate him up with a spoon...lol...what's her name...oh yeah...Gwyneth Paltrow didn't tank the movie...she actually did good & I think she was made for that part...so all in all...it was great...things exploded...there were good looking guys...the movies had a great story...I'd even pay to see a second one if it was ever made.

speaking of movies...it's getting close to summer & you know the people that produce movies want to entertain us sunburned folks...lol...so here's a list of movies I'd like to see this summer...

What Happens In Vegas...May 9...Cameron Diaz & Ashton Kutcher...I should get some laughs out of that one...which I've always thought in the back of my head that these two would make a fun couple...but who am I to say...lol

Indiana Jones & the Kingdom of Crystal Skull...May 22...Harrison Ford, Cate Blanchett, Shia LaBeouf...can't wait to see this movie...just can't wait...I get all excited inside just thinking about this movie...lets just say that I've always had hidden feelings for Harrison...oh what I would do to that mans body...

Sex and the City...May 30...everyone knows who is in it...anyhoo...for the girl in me...the one that I don't always put on display...the one that hates to shop & dress up for men...so they can look at my...ass...legs...& breasts...yeah that woman...I want to see it...I also want to see Mr Big settle down...it should be pretty entertaining...

Kung Fu Panda...June 6...Jack Black, Dustin Hoffman, Angelina Jolie, & Jackie Chan...this should be a cute & funny movie...should also offer several laughs...

The Happening...June 13...Mark Wahlbery, Zooey Deschanel, & John Leguizamo...comes out on Friday the 13th...which is great marketing...it's a thriller & it should leave us wondering what if...

X-Files: I want to Believe...July 25...people should know who is in this movie also...it's just the fact that it questions what we believe & what actually goes on...should be great...interesting & entertaining...

so there it is...the list...yes it's a good number of movies...but maybe my ADD will allow me to sit thru them all...I'll give it my best shot of not spacing out before it's over...lol

Thanks for the help...

to Red Bull & Starbucks...you make it so that I can actually complete a day without wanting to stab someone in the neck with a rusty butter knife...thanks so much...I mean it...I need all the help I can get...life is so much better when those two things are floating thru my body!!!

B-A-N-A-N-A-S...

taken from a Gwen Stefani song...

"this shit is bananas"

got another meeting tonight with a potential agent...woo frickin hoo...though I don't care if I like them or not...I'm not meeting with anymore at all the rest of the week & weekend...I'm tired of waking up hating the fact that I've got those meetings...I've actually had a thought...which is..."I could pay someone to meet with these people as say my representative & then if they think I would get along with them then I'll meet with them"...sounds good to me...though I know it will not work...too bad...

Conversation with an EX...

Not really sure why he called...besides stating that he was moving to ATL & thought that we could get together some time...he made it a point to make sure I knew he was now divorced & never had any kids...this guy was great...though we are not meant for each other...he's always made it clear that I was the one that got away...I try to make it clear that he could not fulfill my needs...in many ways...that our personalities were not meant to be matched...I'm outspoken & he's a complainer...meaning I would tell him to shut the fuck up moaning & complaining about things that he COULD change...though never found the need to actually change them...I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THAT...I don't get along with people that sit around fussing about their life...when in reality they could change what's going on around them...if you don't like something...change it...if you do like something...surround yourself more with those things...it's simple...life is only as good as you make it...that's why it's called YOUR LIFE...stupid people get on my last nerve...

When all else fails...

do a little dance...show your true colors...by telling the jerk off that you wouldn't piss on him if he was on fire...okay...so I'm not that mean...but who's to say...a sweet southern gal like myself doesn't have those thoughts...I can't be perfect...people that know me are already aware of the fact that I speak my mind...sooo...what was he thinking...

I had another meet & greet with a potential agent last night...that came after me working 10 hours...I didn't have a bad day by no means...just a very busy one...though he did get a whole hour of my time...sooooo...what I'm trying to say is that he didn't piss me off until an hour into the meeting...lol...

I'm meeting GG tomorrow...we're going to see Iron Man...woo hoo...then going to get some sushi...since the last time it was storming & we didn't want to trek downtown in all the lightening...or have to drive very far in the monsoon...lol...instead we settle for Japanese food...the kind where they cook it on the grill in front of you...which was cool...we had great conversation & great food...anyhoo...since he is into comic book movies...and since I think Robert Downey Jr. & Terrence Howard could make it pretty interesting...I'm along for the ride...though I think it's great that he said he wanted to really see it & that we could get sushi...which means...this is what ran thru his mind..."hey if I offer sushi then she'll have a harder time saying no to the comic book movie so let me try this to see what happens"...LMAO...I've got to give him points for being creative...

also tomorrow I'm supposed to walk 3.5 miles with the people I work with...all for a great cause...March of Dimes...we're marching for babies...which I think is cool...the only part that I'm not finding so cool...is that it's at 8am on a Saturday morning...yes that's one day that I usually like to sleep in...though I don't mind getting up & getting out of the house for a good cause...it's just that it's supposed to be raining...which means I could get sick...I'm not trying to do that...I was sick enough last year to meet my quota for never being sick again...anyhoo...guess I'll wait & see what the weathers like @ 6:30am tomorrow...lol...

I super excited that it's Friday...got meetings tonight with potential agents...please god stop the cruel & unusual punishment...lol...I hope to find someone to represent me really soon...then I hope to get into bed not to late since I've got to get up at the crack of dawn...anyhoo...then I get to see GG tomorrow...woo hoo...I really like the man...enough said...then on Sunday...it's another round with more meetings...thank goodness the weekend starts for me @ 2pm today!!!